It is almost 4:30 in the morning, and I find myself wide awake. This case of insomnia was triggered by hunger and having to pee really, really bad, and also because I was heavily contemplating my future before I tried sleeping nearly 4 hours ago. Note to self: Stop trying to plan the future before bedtime!
This sudden need to have a self-discussion regarding life was brought on by Monday's visit to Fresno State for Dog Days, the new student orientation. Pre Dog Day, I was set on changing my major from Women's Studies to Liberal Studies so that I can become an elementary teacher after graduating; then after a couple years of teaching here in the U.S., I wanted to become a DoDDS teacher and live happily ever after back in Yokosuka with Stephen and our little family. Post Dog Day? The elementary teaching ship has sailed, and I want to explore the vast career options that a degree in Women's Studies can open up. Exactly how many doors will a Women's Studies degree open up? Too many for my insatiable head to simply choose just one. And unfortunately, the Women's Studies adviser was unable to be there during Dog Days, so all the questions that are currently flooding my head won't be answered until I move to Fresno- and that's in 4 days!
As I have continuously bitched and moaned to Stephen- poor guy- I am the worst person to have fallen in love with such a broad-ranged major. I will say that I have narrowed my interests to 3 categories: education, social work, and public policy. I still want to teach, but I'd rather save teaching for later; after I'm finished with whatever primary career I choose, I want to teach at a college or university and hopefully passionately inspire someone to consider entering the realm of Women's Studies, the same way my teachers have done. But before that? Social work or public policy. I'm still unsure of which path to take, but that's what my time at Fresno State is for, right? I've also started looking at grad schools and internships, and all the possibilities have rekindled my love for Women's Studies.
Although my head is currently soaring through the clouds of the future, I have remember to keep my feet planted in the here-and-now.
First the move. Then Fall 2011. One step at a time.
I will end this post by saying that I'm grateful for attending Dog Days. My last semester at CSN- along with these past couple of months- really whooped my ass, and I was beginning to lose focus and determination. But after going to Dog Days, after listening to the speeches made by advisers, orientation leaders, and the Assistant Dean of the College of Social Sciences, I have been reconnected with perseverance.
And maybe now I can try getting some sleep.
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